...am I dreaming?

I am here - I'm not quite sure who I am - yet I know what I don't want to be...

I care about stuff in a way that's hard to describe - but very important to me - I can make all kind of weird but true connections, which hard to describe - but I feel are very important for me.

I need to express myself--sometimes rather sensitively - because this is my way. I pay attention to little details in life that most overlook. So I take nothing for granted-->I'm just f*cking clumsy at expressing myself!

I keep thinking I need to find ways to be more myself with others-to climb out of my cocoon and express all this inside stuff...especially to those most important to me (I owe them that). I don't want to hide in my own mind - I want to share with and connect with others.

But most important, is that they finally understand what I've been trying to tell them all along!